I’ve been blogging for two months today.
Already I’ve had a crisis in faith. This page started as a lark, an attempt to document my love and sense of wonder for the world around me. Ridiculously, it attracted some attention, and suddenly I found people telling me how much they admire what I am “doing”.
What am I doing, exactly?
What am I trying to do here?
Who am I to be giving anyone advice?
I want to be clear here. I am an expert on nothing and an authority to no one. I need to say that in a public forum, to fend off personal feelings of inadequacy and hypocrisy.
I am just living my life, as best as I can. I am vain enough to post the details (and the photos!) on the internet for anyone to see.
I am striving to be open, optimistic, earnest, sincere. These are not qualities that come easily to me.
Two months ago I decided I wanted to change how I live my life.
My goal was nothing less than to be happy.
Two months later I look back. And guess what? I am happy.
How did that happen?
So, I will continue to blog. Vain as it may be, it makes me happy. I will continue to try to improve the world in little ways. It makes me happy.
I hope that some of what I write and share is useful or inspiring to others.
I hope happiness is catching.
